well, it’s been sooo long since i come here to write. something slapped me really hard today. not literally actually.
it happened on my way home from Bogor, visiting my friend in broken-bone therapy. ok, that’s not the point.
see, at the public transportation, we always meet “pengamen” right. i dont know what’s the english for pengamen actually, let’s just call them pengamen.
i met two pengamens today, kids. boy, around 12 or 13 maybe. and a girl, around 8 or 9. it reminded me to my brother and sister. not that i said my brother and sister are like the pengamen, but it just reminded me of them. haha, silly me ya..
i was listening to my ipod, and the pengamen came to the 08 – the public transport i used- and suddenly, all i felt was annoyed by them. it’s just the way she gave me the white envelope – it used to be the place we put our money after they sing i guess-, and the way he sang the song, gosh! i dont really know what song was that. it’s just awful, undefined, and it ruins my music on the ipod of course.
so, when he sing, my heart was like “please stop it, you really are sooo annoying. stop singing. grrr..”. after a long time, he finally stop singing, and my heart was like “thank god” and the girl was taking all the envelopes from us -the passengers of the 08-
then, the girl saw into those empty envelopes and said: “ngga ada” with that sad face. guys, whoever read this, please imagine a really really sad and disappointed face. oh my gosh. and suddenly, i felt super bad because of what i did. and i dont know why, i just forget how was annoying they are, how was ugly the song and everything. i just feel really sorry about them 
and suddenly the tears come. and my heart felt real hurt. and i started to think, how hard their life. maybe they havent eat all day, maybe the money i gave will be taken by their boss, maybe they will be defeated by their boss because they didnt get enough money, and another scary thought.
and it slapped me.
how unthankful i am sometimes, not sometimes, often times. complaining about this and that, a and b, etc, lalala, lilili. so many times complaining.
well, it shows me that. look around people. you, yes you who read this! there are so may people are less lucky than you! be thankful be grateful. that you’re still alive, you can enjoy the internet, you still have the place to live, you’re healthy, you still have family to support you always, you are secure, this, and that, and everything are happened to be thanking for.
alhamdulillah, dear Allah. thank you for today, yesterday, the past weeks, months, and years. thank you.
thank you for showing me today, that i really need to be thankful. 
